A new chapter – Memories of June

June was a month to remember. I really slowed down at the beginning of the month, enjoying the warm sunny days as we pottered in the garden, being heavily pregnant I didn’t do very much other than sit and watch as Arthur explored, we painted mud pictures together and when we felt tired we snuggled up and watched cartoons. We took a few evening walks after dinner, capturing a beautiful poppy field at its best just as the sun was beginning to fade. And I packed my hospital bag shortly before we welcomed Rupert into our family.

His delivery was the highlight of June, I went into labour a week ahead of a planned c-section and delivered him naturally after just two and a half hours. I could not have hoped for us to meet him in a more perfect way.

The rest of the month was a spent in a hazy newborn bubble at home resting, recovering and bonding with each other as a little family. We were so blessed to receive home cooked food from our Church family which allowed us to focus on each other without making time to shop for food and cook. What a generous act of kindness! I shall definitely remember this for next time a friend or family member welcomes a newborn baby.

Welcoming Rupert

It has been weeks since I logged on to this little space. Seven weeks ago our prayers for a safe and natural delivery were answered when we welcomed our beautiful little boy Rupert into the world – all six scrumptious pounds of him.

Whilst there has been so many moments that I have wanted to capture and journal here on my blog I just haven’t had the time or energy to sit and write. Honestly, I don’t think I have quite had the right words to articulate just how incredible this new chapter in our life has really felt, but that’s ok because those raw and precious newborn moments are sure to be locked in my mama memory bank for a life time.

It’s been a wonderful whirlwind of joy and chaos here as we have taken our time to bond with Rupert and adjust to our new family rhythm.

Peace & Light ~ Memories of May

May is a beautiful month and this May has been no exception with plenty of time spent outside in the fresh air and sunshine. However, I can not post this month’s memories without mentioning the sadness has touched the hearts of so many after the awful attack in Manchester leaving many families grieving the loss of loved ones. As a mother, I can not help but want to bundle my boy up and keep him safe forever, but a big part of parenthood is to learn to let go of those little hands and let them explore their own little world. I have been reminded that the most important thing we can teach our children above all else is love – to love and be loved wholeheartedly – and to remind them that gratitude and kindness can make this broken world a better place.

My lovely friend bought me a peace lily earlier this month to bring me peace throughout the remainder of my pregnancy, which is such a lovely and thoughtful gift idea for expectant mamas in the final weeks before birth. I have put it on the fireplace in the living room and I must say it really has a calming effect. We have just a mere few weeks to go before welcoming our baby into the world and I have begun to gather things together in preparation for his arrival. I know newborns don’t need an awful lot, but it does make me feel happy to fold tiny vests and to get organised. I have also hung a sweet cloud mobile above our bed which a friend made for us after Arthur was born.

The weather here has been super this month and we’ve not been governed too much by the pressures of time, allowing for a slower pace in which to enjoy just being together. We have been out for lots of walks, planted up an old sink with herbs, we made a (pretend) campfire at the bottom of the garden under the big tree and I have even surrendered to taking daytime naps whilst my boy sleeps next to me. Sleeping in the day is not something I usually like to do but I’m beginning to feel the need to rest up whilst I can.

Hope you had a good month.
Laura

Waiting for a rainbow

Awaiting the arrival of our little one has been met with so many different emotions over the past few months, pregnancy after loss is a tough journey but one I knew I needed to take, to be a mother and to nurture my growing children is rooted at my very core. I’m so grateful to have transitioned from what was a very anxious beginning, to one that has seen my heart blossom with excitement and sweet anticipation of what’s to come for us as our little family expands. Each and every day I feel blessed and I have found myself embracing the present, allowing a slower pace in which to enjoy each moment for what it is. Growing a human is an awesome thing, scary, but awesome and I am hugely thankful for this experience. 

My faith has helped me immensely this time around, I have learnt to pass my worries to God and accept that this is all part of His plan whatever that might be, my prayers have been answered and where the fear of loss took hold of my every thought, I have found a way to let joy fill me right up. After all, happiness is found in the present moment, right? It’s in the here and now, it’s feeling each little kick and sweet movement and it’s seeing my tummy stretch out before me, hoping and praying that soon my arms will be as full as my heart.

I have also found myself relishing in the sweet days that I get to spend with Arthur, just the two of us doing as we please, close and content without wanting to rush this time away, I know this is a really special time for me as a mother before bringing a new life into the world. In my quiet moments, I reflect on how poignant this season of motherhood is, especially when I feel the weight of my toddler nestled in my arms whilst he takes his afternoon nap. His breath hot on the nape of my neck reminds me of just how far we have come. Out of our darkness, he brought a light and life richer than I could have ever anticipated, in recent weeks I’ve seen the roots of empathy begin to emerge in his play, and I know he is going to make such a good big brother.

And so we wait and see. And we hope and pray for our little rainbow.