Today marks a poignant date in our diary, not only is it Valentines day, but it is our boys official due date. A day I had put quite a bit of thought into over the past nine months, looking forward to their arrival and imagining what life would be like as a mother of twins. Never once did it occur to me that our boys would not be here with us now.
Since we lost Henry and Benjamin, six weeks ago, I contemplated what this day actually means to us now that my husband and I are parents without our babies. I wondered if it would be possible to even get out of bed, let alone acknowledge that today represented a celebration of love.
However, it has occurred to me that, for us, there is so much more love to be celebrated now. Today is about the bond that we share as a family. It is about the unconditional love that we felt as our boys came peacefully into this world, that feeling will never leave us and has left an imprint on our hearts.
Today also represents the love that is shared between our extended families, an unbreakable bond that is now not only joined by our marriage, but by the life we created as our boys developed in my womb for 33 weeks. The brief time we all spent together in the hospital with Henry and Benjamin was intensified by the love in which we all shared and will continue to share for the rest of our lives.
So this Valentines Day my husband and I have so much more love to celebrate than ever before. Our hearts are full. We intend to make the most of this day, even though the physical presents of Henry and Benjamin are not here they remain strong in out hearts.
Image: We Made This home.
The flowers we have bought to lay with Henry and Benjamin at the Church.
Hubby and I are off on a little adventure to London this weekend 🙂 I was lucky enough to win a place on Emily’s Photography Workshop tomorrow, I am so excited to share what I learn with you.
Have a great weekend xxx