It has been so long since I last popped over here to write, my energy levels have been low and my enthusiasm has been lost, a long and very grey winter has passed but thankfully tiny signs of spring are beginning to emerge and with it I have found my enthusiasm again.
We began this year with some sad and worrying news for our family, my dad has been diagnosed with cancer, it has knocked us all and has of cause been a worry for my dad who is dealing with it. He has recently received the best possible news that the cancer is small and slow-growing and so we are hoping and praying that with the help and care from the doctors he will make a full recovery.
I have also been caught in the middle of an emotional mix of anxiety and pure joy over the past few months – we are expecting a baby and utterly thrilled to be extending our little family later this summer. Pregnancy after loss is a tough journey to navigate, the fear of losing another child grips me so tight, leaving me feeling frightened and unable to trust my body to do something that should be so natural and so joyful. However, with that said, the weeks do seem to be flying by this time, with each day and each tiny movement that I feel I am trying my best to put the worry aside and enjoy the journey towards holding our littlest member of the family in my arms safe and well.
Despite this winter feeling like a long and hard slog, we have managed to make plenty of lovely memories along the way and have some good times to look back on, here are some of the things we have been enjoying:
- Clearing the garden, collecting seeds ready for the year ahead and planting winter flowers to brighten up the grey days
- seeing the bulbs we planted back in November emerge from the ground
- Winter walks
- Visiting National Trust gardens (look at these snowdrops!)
- Hot chocolates a plenty
- An impromptu trip to the Cotswolds (how very sweet is the blue shepherd hut I spied in the garden above)
- Seeing the newest member of the family at our scan 12 and 20 week scan